guess everyone ever since elementary school have complain about their most difficult subject even till secondary / high school or even tertiary level.

"i hate maths, it's so difficult. don't even meant for us to study."
"i hate science. physics, chemistry and me are dead nemesis, no way are we to be on the same line."
"i hate chinese. who even cares about chinese anyway?"

these sentences are familiar with students. no way one have not heard things like that.
but are these subjects/ modules the most difficult and hardest?

to me, these subjects indeed once to me were considered the hardest and the most difficult subjects.
but as i walk on the path, these are not considered the most difficult subjects/module.
what i think is the most difficult module or modules are:

Love and Life

surprisingly they are consider the most difficult module to me or rather everyone.

Love is a module that no one can comprehend.
a module that all of us will go through it without even any selection.
a module that is of different forms, so much to the extend that we don't know how many are there.
a module that is so complex and yet we still continue to go for each lesson.

Life is also a module that no one comprehends.
a module that everyone needs to go through whether we want it or not.
a module of different forms, but for us to discover it.
a module full of complexity but we learn and grow as each lesson goes.

these two modules, everyone have been complaining difficult, hard. but we still continue attending these modules. irony isn't it?

compare to these two modules, are the other modules that hard?
and how come no matter how hard or difficult these two modules are, we are willing to attend it. why?

irony isn't it?





it's beauty and value, only we know it ourselves....

my com was down with some error yesterday afternoon.
something to do with the connections somehow
since i can't connect to internet later on.

*WINDOWS SOCKET ERROR; 10055*

first thing that dawned on me was to restart com
restart finish le went to do research on the problem (as "trained" by RP)
then ok.. knew is something to do with the TCP/IP thingy?
too much connection something like that?

yes, i did ask the IT Whiz and he suggest to use combofix
after reading the link i send over.
ok.. i did wad was told
went to download combofix and run it

and the log which i made a screen shot



i see i laugh until siao. hahhahahax
why?
see the picture again and carefully.
see that highlighted box?
yes, i see that i laugh like siao

possible infected site: RP webmail!

ahahahahahhaha
i send over to him and he too laugh. lol
man can you believe it?
hahahahaha

for one instance
i'm watching the review of my memories
it came to the part of that particular day
the part where hands were held for a reason

i seriously regard that as one of my most precious memories
one that i doesn't want to forget about
slowly rewinding back to the other happy days with friends
the uniform days

just like these memories played
that fear once again floods in
that darkness crept back in
shattering all of me to pieces again

afraid, scared, frighten, whatever that is
i have ran out of words to describe it
no one's really there around when i really needed badly
alone again and they won as usual case

scared that the memories will be forgotten
afraid that they will be gone
i don't know what will happen to me if i forgets
will i also forget the people?





what if one day i forget about you...

...those faces are just purely faces
the really real is hidden right deep behind
covering with layers and layers of it
coming from all the pain and hurt...

the last weekend was extreme madness! yes the extremely amazing F1 race.
madness till nearly went deaf?

anyway, i'm so not going to talk about it. let the pics do all the talkimg.
































tad's all folks...