I uphold them into Your hands, I pray that You will bless them for the case later. Give them the strength and the power to carry on. You know what is going on all these while. I hope that You can show them a way, a way that gives them hope and the future. You have seen what they had gone through, You have seen what people do to them. So protect them from the evil and harm, bless their health and being. I know I can't do anything for them but to pray. Pray for their health, being, hope, future and the strength. I know You heard me, You heard the others' prayers. We really wish for a Miracle and only You can bring us that. I put my trust on You and all these I pray in Your name, Jesus Christ.

Amen.

It's been quite a while since I last update.
19th today.
Not out with anyone to celebrate.
Instead camping at home on the laptop.

Might wondering why didn't I go out or something.
I want to know the reason too.
But I can guess roughly that everyone is too busy.
A sad and lonely 19th.
Perhaps I had been used to the loneliness that I don't find it bothering.

Spent my last 18th with Younique.
Was fun, joy and laughter filled.
Thanks to Cynthia for letting us to use her house.
Thanks to Younique for the surprise, I really appreciate it.
Thanks to Nathan for his present, it's really nice. =)
Thanks to the rest who send their greetings through Facebook, MSN and SMSes.

Recently don't really have the appetite to eat.
Either 1 meal only or don't eat the whole day.
I'm getting more and more used to it.
Though my stomach is having problem, but I just don't feel like eating.

Stop here, will update soon...

we’ve walked over
through that dark days
you and me in different areas.

though it stills haunts me
even now when i sleep
it’s horrible and crazy
and i always ended up crying
an unforgettable nightmare
that i’ll forget

times i’ve had the thought of
cutting myself again
not once but many
that bad to the extend
i wanted to die
but i know there are people
that i cared and cared for me
people like you, her, them, etc

don’t blame yourself again
it’s never once, your fault
instead, i’m glad
glad that we have overcome
the obstacle that is such a barrier
a barrier may cause us to break
thanks for believing
thanks for being there when needed
thank you, my forever friend.

was out in the evening with the guys to service today. the service was cool, sat together in a row with majority of us. hahahax.

halfway into the service, stomach was rumbling and rumbling. had skipped lunch earlier the day. went to subway for dinner. all their bread were finished by us! LOL xD. somehow we can't get off the topic about left 4 dead. we will just somehow landed back on the topic again.

went home after dinner, jeff and i was still saying the night is still young and were thinking of going drinking. was thinking of asking the rest along but some are going service at CHC tomorrow morning, so we decided to ask others instead. in the end, no one was available at the moment. then we changed our mind to go somewhere to hangout instead, we decided on fort canning park then change to changi airport. in the end, the both of us decided to go kbox. it's taxing to think of places to hangout at times like this.

this is seriously the first time i sang almost 95% of english songs in kbox. most of my visits are chinese songs. well, it's a cool thing for a change. we realised the room we went previously wasn't the biggest room of all. there is another room solely by itself at the other side near the elevator. we sang our way to 3am. it's a very nice session.

the session ended and we decided to cab home, jeff suggested walking to pasir ris mrt because it has been a long time he enjoyed night breeze. we walked and chatted, suddenly he suggest walking to my house. i would say not a wise suggestion, but we walked our way there. it was like around 50m to my house before we managed to flag down a cab. took the rest of the 50m in cab while he cabbed home.

it was a nice day out, and he enjoyed a lot because he managed to get some free time out of his busy schedule and somemore tomorrow he doesn't have to report for work. it's cool chilling out at night. next time lets go somewhere again! =)

thinking has been interesting lately
having time to oneself has been great

bliss & bless...


最近来往得有些近
笑容满面背后的些小尴尬
因此静静地被藏了起来
也对，是该有些尴尬的

虽然被邀参加团契
该知道的是怎样都不了得的
坦率地说，是遗忘
也许，早已变成了习惯

或许参与是个错误
早在打从离开的那刻
就已成了不该回去的定局

走了这几个月
改变早已进化了
留恋的终究是赶不上变化的
事实是永不改变的

有些时候，让一切回到原点会是最好的良药...

Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
meng li hua - angela chang

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
wish - arashi

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
zai yi ci yong you - gong shi jia

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
liang zhi lian ren - gary cao

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
perfect love - hillsongs

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
zhong ji yi ban - tank lu

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
go all the way (into the twilight) - perry farrell

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
one love - arashi

WHAT IS 2+2?
she wu - jay chou

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
qing xing you ni ai wo - joi chua

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
time has come - hillsongs

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
deeper - hillsongs

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
wo xiang yao shuo - evan cai

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
clair de lune - the apm orchestra

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
yu dao - wang lan yin

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
shuo hao de xing fu ne - jay chou

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
light - hillsongs

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
evermore - hillsongs

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
hajimari no kaze - ayaka hirahara

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
the freedom we know - hillsongs

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
wei ni chun zai - fahrenheit

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
na nian xia tian ning jing de hai - cyndi wang

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
you deserve - hillsongs

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
cong tai bei dao bei jing - sing shi

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
qiao ke shu shu - jay chou

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
forever - hillsongs

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
you reign - hillsongs

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
bu neng shuo de mi mi - jay chou

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
yao zi - derrick hoh

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
tattoo - jordin sparks

it's a new year from today!!!

wish everyone a blessed year ahead!
have fun!!! =)